I got quite twatted saturday after we lost the fuzzball from 1 bottle of wine.
I called half my phonelist. And than i passed out.
Drugs ?Not into them anymore. Not into heavy drinking either.
I didn't do drugs very often (i'm more the occasional drugger) but when i did it, i did it well. I'm more the binge kind off person. But not anymore.
I know now what it is to do drugs and i love the feeling of rushing, but i cannot enjoy it anymore. When i am rushing i can only think of the comedown. Cause my comedowns are baaaaad. Besides that, i think it's not good to do to much drugs. It fucks you up. Ive seen it happening around me.
As for coke....i've done it a few times and i got really twatted from it, and i had fun, and now i never want to do it again. It's the most fucked up drug i know. Even i, who is really strong and i an mot the kind off person who gets addicted easily, wanted more when the last line of coke stops working... I HATE THAT FEELING!!!
So i'm not saying i'll never do drugs again - but in my short period of doing drugs i've seen to much.
I know ive said this before when i had a really bad experience, but this time it's different. Than i was not ready to not do it anymore - when i thought about the rushy feeling e gives you i still felt excited. Now when i think of that sushy feeling, i just feel uncormfortable.
Nowadays when i go out i just get tipsy, and i have better parties than ive ever had before :-D