Posted 21 June 2011 - 4:01 PM
I am in extreme need of CHEMICAL CONCERT! It's funny; Whirls once said that whenever she really needs a chems concert one comes up. I have the same!
Short story; I had a huge burn out the end of 2010. I got out of it, myself, went trough a very dark few months, but picked myself up and got my life back on track. A burn out is something you can't really stop from happening if you never experienced it before; i'm just the kind of person who keeps on going on until i fall down. I didn't see it coming and suddenly even making tea was to much for me. From one day to another i just...collapsed. I had to quit my job immediatly. I learned from that, for sure.
So i got my life back on track in 2 months time; new job, an awesome place to live, etc. 2 months might seem short to get out of something that intense, but in those 2/3 months i learned more than i did in the past year.
And now...i am diagnosed with RSI (repetetive strain injury) in my right shoulder phase 3 ( the worst, means: fucked for life haha) and starting RSI in my left shoulder. Basicly, i can NOT sit behind a desk anymore or else i will have a lot of pain in my shoulder-arm-hand every single day. (it already started 3 years ago, i have a very bad back and posture and it started because of the computer and the desk work...little did i know that it could get SO bad i can´t even hold a pen sometimes without getting a lot of pain in my hand!)
So, the path that i found for my life, i can´t take. Again, i had to quit my job immediatly and now my task is to find a job where i can move around a lot. I am doing therapy for my shoulder and i am searching for a job thats NOT behind a desk. Which sounds easier than it is. Basicly, my resume has mostly jobs like ´project manager´ or ´account manager´. Good jobs, but i worked my way up in those offices (Not in the dirty way hahaha!) And because in the period of life where most people go to university, i was a international model, i don´t have any degrees. So whatever field i will be working in now, i have to start overnew, all the way in the bottom. If i find a job, that is. And than IF i find a fulltime job i have to funds to study so in three years time i can work with mentally disabled people.
So, it´s a bit of a sucky situation, but i´m not gonna let it get to me obviously.
Long story, but the point of it is....i need some chemical brothers MUSIC GIG POWERRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!