What sort of crazy is it, that can explain the strange phenomenon that is this: whenever I am about to see the Chems, it always happens right at a time when I really need it. Like, there's some medical or emotional drama going on, and right when my cosmic cup runneth over, I go to this gig and I feel awesome and rejuvenated and then everything is hunky dory. It's the strangest freakin thing.

So, my latest drama is my poor mom who is a mess and my dad who is recovering from his kidney transplant. He had a heart attack last Friday and it was considered minor but this is a setback, nonetheless. My folks are still in Houston by the way so it's not like I can just hop in my car and be with them. Anyway, my dad is still in the hospital and last nigh was apparently popping nitroglycerin tablets like tic tacs (not good, when you're over 70 and have just had a heart attack) turns out yesterday, he's got anemia so bad he had to have a blood transfusion. So I just found out now, that after last night, docs are concerned about his heart so he's having a camera jammed up into his aorta or whatever. So this blows chow, seriously. So done with this month

Sorry for the rant and for being such a fuckin downer. And sorry for any typos. Love you guys.

Fuck me what a bummer.

Health is the most important thing of all, we take it for granted until something shit like this blindsides us. It's a world of hurt when somebody close to you is ill. My dad was sick with cancer for years, looked very dodgy a few times. He's fine now thank Jesus but know what your going through.
Hope everything works out whirly.

Ow mooms I'm so sorry to hear that.
I won't go into a detailed reply here; i'll speak to you on chat.
Lots of love to you!

Man I don't know what I'd do without the people in my life. And that includes this place because it gives me a chance to rant if I need to, and get it off my chest. I already feel better just writing. I think god and my lucky stars I always have a place or someone to turn to when the shit hits the fan.

I'm just beside myself. My mom is so upset.. One of my dad's aortas is 100% blocked and the others are pretty jacked up. There's concern about his freshly donated kidney. I hope it's strong. I know this shit is what it is, and I have to keep telling myself that. I was never particularly close with my dad, and our relationship was strained most of my life. He's a difficult man in so many ways, and I was never a daddy's girl. But things have been on the up and up these past few months, for which I'm glad. Tomorrow never knows. Anyway. It looks like I'm headed back to Houston, TX this weekend.

As with Facebook, <3 4 u Whirls.

::hugs::

Might go see Boys Noize tonight. Have to see if I can get tickets.

Hope it all goes well Whirls, our hearts go out to you. <3

@Whirls

I went to my Grandpa's funeral yesterday and it was harder than I thought it was! But yet, my family really needed each other, as well as other relatives I've haven't seen in years. When I was 8 years old, my real dad left and never bothered to see us or make any attempts to call. I saw him again around 97 or 98 but it was awkward because I didn't know what to say to him. I finally see him yesterday after all these years, and my emotions were mixed because I was mourning the lost of my grandfather, who had 4 kids in his family (one of them being my father)

I was devastated at the funeral, and I can't remember a time where I felt so alone or sad in all my life.

After the funeral, I wanted to talk to my dad, but he seemed tired or uninterested to talk to me, so I gave him my number and told him to call me.

I feel that i'm trying to reach out to him, but I think it's hard right now and hopefully time will and can make the difference.

I missed alot of times and chances to spend time with my grandfather. That's why i'm still hurting right now, but I don't wanna lose my chance with my dad!

So with all the strength, courage, and support that I have left, I want to send to you Whirls! I send so much love and support from my heart to you and your family!

Thank you so much, inchem - you are so kind to say such things when you must be hurting so much. I really hope your dad reaches out to your extended hand. Take care and big (((((hugs))))) to you!!

Obviously, Our past relationships with our fathers may have been tough Whirls, but just making attempts to be there for them is love without borders or boundaries!

Keep us updated when you get back from Houston. I'm sure everything's gonna be OK.....

....and remember, you have a party to go to next month!

Wauw Inchem, wat a beautiful post you wrote. The subject is very sad, ofcourse.
I really hope the relationship with your dad will change.
Lots of love to you!

@inchemwetrust: Awww, brother--I'm sorry to hear that you've had to face such a loss and that you and your father don't connect well. Keep the faith, man. And keep trying to communicate--that's all you can do.

WhiteNoise, on 29 December 2010 - 4:19 AM, said:

Ditto

liz taylor is dead.



ach.

Yes, yes, rest in peace, Liz Taylor.

Apparently the New York Times had been planning her obituary for so long that the original author of her NYT obituary died six years before Elizabeth Taylor did...

So sad! She was a hottie!

Had a dream the other night......Tom and Ed were on 'Oprah'!!

inchemwetrust, on 24 March 2011 - 5:21 AM, said:

Yeah, unfortunately she wasn't any more in her later days. But I REALLY like her on the photo I have chosen, damn hot. Especially when keeping in mind, that was around 40 or 50 years ago.

Liz Taylor had been in declining health for well over a decade. Even though that took a toll on her looks, and even though she was wheelchair bound in her later years, she still carried herself with grace when she appeared in public. The last picture I saw of her she looked so pitiful and frail, undignified and it was sad the paparazzi even had the gall to print it. I think how she looked in her heyday is how she will be remembered, as her beauty is timeless. She was so lovely on the outside and the face she lent to her charitable works shows she possessed an inner beauty as well.

I missed you guys. Had a long stressful weekend. It's good to be back.

whirlygirl, on 24 March 2011 - 4:00 PM, said:

YAAAAAAY! Glad you made it back, m'dear.

Going to try to get on Law Review next year... Yikes.

Counting down the days to Coachella, and then the days until finals, and then the days until D.C.

it was a bit empty and boring in here without you, also others have remained quite silent in the past few days. good to see you abck, hope you'll get some more time for yourself (andthe forum) in the coming days

inchemwetrust, on 20 March 2011 - 12:09 PM, said:

Make that 3... I'm surprised Im talking about this stuff on here but meh screw it. I'm open about if someone asks about my father. I've never met him and he's not interested in meeting even though I allegedly have a brother and sister he later had with someone else. They didnt know about me until a couple of years back. So far nothing. You're so pissed off with them but at the same time you're still intrigued as where you might've came from.... Cant dwell on it though. I have the chems to contribute to the soundtrack to my life. Love is All. Its so nice how close you guys are on something like this.