On the plus side, I turned my rehab counsler on to the Chemical Brothers.

"These chemicals are good..."

Is that where you were? If so, I hope it went well and that you're all doing well, since we all love you here and all.

ahwell, atleast you and your counselor will have common ground now dude =)

kinda off topic...

but i managed to convert a friend to chemical bros recently...which is impressive since she usually listens to hottest 100.

Thinking of you Jim!

All my love to you.

STAAAAAAAASH!

I miss you, man. And I'm glad you're doing well.

Lots of platonic, non-homosexual-unless-I've-had-more-than-two-and-a-half-drinks love to you, my friend.

::hugs::

duuuuude..... thinkin of u man....i feel a slip that way for me too lol....

i love u guys more than people ive actually met! :)

I'm doing awesome. I was so fucked up on xanax it's unbelievable. I basicly had a black out from December '08 until about 3 weeks ago. I remember only 5 minute snatches of time here and there. I went to Seattle twice I'm told, but I don't remember it at all. Finally got off the weed, 11 years of smoking every fucking night. Made me stupid enough to start taking xanax. The real fuct thing is that my insurance paid for all the pillz, but didn't want to pay for the detox.

Uggh, why is it that health insurance is so absolutely f*cked in this country? They take your money, and it's no problem. But when they have to pay money, suddenly there are all sorts of problems.

You've been abiding by your end of the deal: you pay them hundreds of dollars per month, so that when you get sick you won't have to mortgage your house for a second time. But after all those years when you actually -get- sick, the insurance companies will tell you that your pre-existing condition prevents them from giving you coverage. Okay, that's fine, I say. But how about giving me back all that money I've given to you over the years? If my pre-existing condition denies coverage, it should deny you from keeping the money I gave to you.

Glad you're back with us, man.

planet earth is fun and exciting

Hehe, yeah, my husband now has a nightmarish addiction to life.

"Have you smelled this chamomile?? It's blowing my mind!!!"

The last few months spiralled downward freakishly fast, the last 3 months were beyond hideous. Look up benzodiazapines and addiction and read about what it does. It's very surreal to deal with true addiction and have your husband in rehab, but I'm grateful for it because it needed to happen. It would have happened eventually because there was a real underlying issue - it just took a quick downward spiral to make it all bubble up to the surface. In all seriousness I have no doubt this would have been an RIP thread and my son wouldn't have had a dad to celebrate father's day with yesterday - if it weren't for what took place over the past month.

You Chems fans and the music that brought us here to our litle corner of the internet are rad and I'm so grateful to have you in our lives.

chamomile smells amazing! it grows wild in santa cruz like weeds in some area and covers up the smell of b.o. and hashish.

anyway, stash I'm glad you went through rehab and are here to tell the story. you've definitely got some stuff going in your life that surpass the drugs.

I finally started writing my book. You all will be in it. Whether that's good or bad remains to be seen :D

my psychiatrist said bad when I told him

Hey Stash,

Glad you have improved and found a new high in life! You have a lovely lady looking after you I'm happy you have such support! :)

I'm glad you're doing the good thing Stash! Planet earth is cool and we're glad you decided to enjoy it with us :)

Keep fighting the good fight!

Was that the Chamomile I sent with the package at christmas? Do you even remeber the package at christmas? Do I even remember last christmas?

I'll second the internet group hug for stash. (in the I love as a friend but I am more interested in women way).

Good to hear you taking a positive step. I would go on more about how I wish some people in my life would take the same step but I don't feel like buying any cheese with my whine.

:lol: The 'chamomile is blowing my mind' is sort of an inside joke between me and stash. If you've ever seen The Onion movie, you'd know which scene I'm taking about (really funny movie, btw).

Of course we remember the Christmas package! That was one of the most beautiful things anyone has ever done for us. I still get warm fuzzies thinking about it. And the tea was yummy - I don't recall there being any chamomile, though. There was a fruity blend tea which was real nice!

As for the cheese n'whine, I hear ya. It's not whining though. It's really not whining... There's a lot of guilt and an incredible amount of shame on both sides - asking for help - even offering help for fear of rejection and ridicule by the person you want to help - is a difficult thing to do. Asking for family and friend's emotional and financial help and admitting defeat over someone else's situation that I had no business trying to control was the hardest thing for me to do, absolutely. Humble Pie is being served regularly at our house. Please if you ever need to talk about it, you know where to find me.

@Rynostar: I believe that it is called "loving him in a Christian way."

Lol

/(sarcasm & lulz)