I've done K a small handful of times, I had amazing experiences but have no real desire to ever do it again. I'm over it (and getting to the point where I'm pretty much over most things in that realm) as I found the last couple of times I indulged were not at all worth the aftermath.

I find the opposite: I find K to have absolutely no noticeable crash at all. So nice and clean and sparkly.

I hope I can say the same thing in the morning. Typing is becoming increasingly difficult and will soon not be possible.

It's an absolutely amazing drug and I revel in the hole but it's also not a drug consistent with public places, family members, driving, etc.

I haven't done anything dumb like this on a weeknight in a long, long time.

Oh no... no, I didn't mean the crash from K (as there really is none except some body wobblies directly after the trip). But I've gotten everything I've wanted from the drug so it's not something I crave doing again.

What I meant was, I'm pretty much over the drugs period at this particular time. That's not to say I'll never do them again because I'm sure an opportunity will strike when the time is right... but for me I'm experiecing the older I get, the harder it is to deal with the comedowns both physically and emotionally. I guess it's time to stop pretending I can keep up with my former younger self. And on a personal level, the past 8 months have been real tough with too much going on - and I find that for me the recklessness that comes with using drugs even in moderation exasperate the the body and mind.

I appear to be dealing with moderate to very light drug use with ease. I believe I'm probably going to keep using drugs until my death, though admittedly they'll become a once a year thing at some point. Well, even now, actually, I only do them a handful of times each year...

But I know what you mean, Whirls, about the toll of drugs affecting you more and more as the years pass. It's an unfortunate side effect of aging--your body breaks down and you can't handle the drugs like you used to. Bummer.

That makes sense, Whirly. I feel mostly the same way about MDMA and coke (not that there's much to get out of coke anyway). I do them still for the physical pleasure of it but I'm enjoying partying while soberish to be a lot better of a time lately. I certainly don't binge or go for endurance records the way I used to.

I still feel as though I have things to learn from LSD and especially from K. I am really really enjoying this ketamine right now, esp. with the relative lack of aftereffects. Going deep into the hole absolutely fascinates me as it takes me places I've never been without any sense of emotional fear at all.

I might try it IM for the first time this weekend. Not sure yet though. Depends on if the right occasion re. setting and safety comes up.

Nevertheless, I'm shocking friends by going out sober(ish) these days. I've always been the trailblazer when it comes to partying hard but I just have been getting my energy and enjoyment elsewhere these days and feel a lot better for it.

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HAHAHA trying to lure me out? I've been not too ridic lately and semi-suceeding. I write my last university exam ever tomorrow so this will be a messy weekend. But for the most part I don't do compulsively dumb things anymore. For the most part.

Laid into the charlie a little too hard last night, though. Ordered some to help with studying but I'd finished studying by the time my guy finally came by. So... I ended up hoovering a gram anyway.

Hehe, I knew it would work.

Good luck with that exam!