Well.
MY fiend had this album on his music thingy - so i took his music thingy home and i listened to it while being tipsy. I took my blankets and pillow and wnet in my pyjama's all cuddled up on my couch. I just HAD to hear it one more time.
The Pills Wont Help You Now hit me SO hard this time. Its weird - First time i heard it i thought it was amazing but it didnt really hit me until this morning. I actually had to cry :| I know i know i'm such a geek. But it just hit me , u know. I could so FEEL the song.
Jeez this album is SO wicked. Because i listened to it while being a bit drunk i listened to it with different ears - I let go of all the thought i had about this and i just FELT.
Its like Whirls said - this album
OH WAIT I LISTEN TO BURST GENERATOR NOW.
ITS SO GOOD! THE BUILD UP! THE BUILD UPPPP!!!
Rakatakka Rakatakka BOOM!!! Oh fuck me this song. This song to me is GOD. Do u believe in God ?! No i believe in Burst Generator! I NEED U TO BELIEVE! This song people. When i hear this live IN TWO DAYS YES PEOPLE IN TWO DAYS! HOLLAND WILL SEE THE BIGGEST EARGASM IN HISTORY OF HOLLAND!!!
OK back to the album.
NOOO!! ANOTHER BUILD UP!!! Shit i cant take it. Its only noon and i slept 4 hours but party in my livingroom! Jezus christ.
The sounds they use in this song are so...so epic. This is their most euphoric work yet. Its like taking all the good things and feelings u have ever felt and put them together in a piece of music.
How the fuck do they do that. There is music out there that makes me feel amazing but nobody does what they do. Thats why i love the so much. They give you SUCH a headfuck. I listen to this track and i cannot explain what i feel! It goes beyond words , really. I feel so euphoric , i feel like shit doesnt matter , because all the amazingness i need is wrapped up in this song. This song to me is what Surface 2 Air was when i was really depressed in New York. I'm not gonna say "THE CHEMS SAVED ME!" But this album came at the right time. I needed this album and this track!
Ok SO, Like Whirls said , this album is a rollercoaster of emotions.
OH! A Modern Midnight Conversation! THE FUNKY BEAT! WHo is the womans vocals ?! My mum said "HEY THATS ANNIE LENNOX!" and now that i think of it , Its sounds well Lennox!
Oh the funky crazy going synth! Gorilla escapes in Dutch Zoo! No , Its Jeanie going Ape to the funky beat!
Ok. So. Rollercoaster of emotions blbala. This is so true tho. While other albums were also a total trip - this one is BAM IN YOURE FACE MOTHERFUCKER! Hahahaha. How do i say this expression in english....Damn people learn dutch! Hahahaha. I dunno how to say the expression.
ANYWAYS.
This album is incrediablé! ( Yeah thats my made up word off the day )
U know its so weird cause. Well i am a very sensitive girl. I have BIG emotions. There is lots of music out there that touches me. That makes me feel differently than i felt before. That makes my mood change in a positive or negative way. That makes me feel amazing or sad - That totally makes me emotional.
But nobody does what Tom and Ed do. This album is only a confirmation of WHY i love them so much. Of WHY i am on this board , and WHY i met all the amazing people here , off WHY i told Ed in person what their music means to me , of WHY i travel half the world to see them gig , of WHY i needed this album so much in a hard time in my life ( I'm fine , just a bit of a funk u know )
Like , i stopped modelling and i am fucking happy i did that. The 4 years that i have been modelling the other cd's where always there. Ive been fucking lonely for four years cause i said goodbye SO many times. The albums with music that made me feel so much were always there. I never had to say goodbye to them. My love for the Chems goes SO much deeper than "Wicked tune!"
And now i stopped modelling thank god mother mary halleluja. Best thing i could ever do. Its not me , modelling. I'm to 1969. :lol: And its fucking hard u know, I used to travel loads , my life has been a crazy rollercoaster , and now i am back in Amsterdam having no idea what the fuck i wanna do with my life , trying to re-build a social life.
Its weird and u all might think this is emotional blabla - But this album REALLY came at the right time. It represents a new life for me kind off. Every Chems Album has a different place in my life - and this album just...its weird to say it - and i know it sounds weird , but i kind off feel like my life is only just starting , but i already lived and experienced so much. Thats what i feel when i listen to this album. Its fucking weird. Jeez i should have a emo haircut! Hahahahahahaha :lol:
Only Tom and Ed can make music that , well , that i really NEED. I dont know what it is with those guys. There are SO many brilliant mucisians out there but non of them does what Tom and Ed do. Floyd comes close , Radiohead comes close , but. Well. I cannot understand it. How people can make such music !!
Music is such a wonderfull thing u know. It makes me feel SO much. And i already feel a lot. My life is one rollercoaster of crazy emotions. I wish it would calm down in my head sometimes u know. But music is just. Damn - Music really is everything to me. No matter how fucked up i feel the music is always there as a warm comfortable blanket that surrounds me.
Ok. Please note that i am 100% sober. I just needed to share this with you all!
xxx