And that's why I said no to GHB on the weekend! :) Even I have some semblance of sense.

I've been doing coke a bit more lately. I'll never consider it a mindblowing drug but it's a bit of fun.

Anyways, I'm about to head out...

GHB's bad, mmmkay.

It's not the hydrocodone, the opiate part of vicodin, that fucks you up, physically, it's all the aspirin in it that does it.

Now, if you happen to be privy to secret alchemickal processes, learned from wizards like Darkstar, you can remove the aspirin and just have the hydrocodone... or even better, you can have pills that are all hydrocodone, without the aspirin...

Isn't GHB like liqid G. My friend accently drank like a good amount of that shit. She like passed out because it can be used as a date rape drug.She came really close to being rapped by some guy at a rave. I had like a waterbottle full of it that i was gonna sell but once i found that out i felt bad selling it so i gave it to some dude who is my suplier. Needless to say won't touch it.

Same with meth. My older sister is a meth addict and i tryed it once. It fucked me up bad. I straightend my hair for about 2 hours straight. the black ceramic turned my blonde hair grey I had to wash it 4 times. I also threw up and went into a deep depresseion the next day that lasted around 2 days. I did it only to see why my sister act the way she does. I learned now that somthing like that does nothing for you. Theres experimentation and then theres just stupidity. Of course doing meth wasn't the brightest move on my behave. I went through extreme parnoia and just felt sick. I did have a good hour where I felt invinceable and was inlove with myself.

But it def wasn't worth it. I do understand my sister alot more now. I know why she does certin things and acts completly FUCKED sometimes. Addictive personality runs through my family like the plauge. My dad has 4 cousins who are all junkies and my father himself is a heavydrinker and his older brother (who is now disest) was a heavy herioine user wat one point. Both my grandfathers were alcholics and my grandmother is also. Thats why i keep my drug use limited. (other then weed) I belive cannibis is probly the most safe thing you can do.Alot more safer then booze!

Theres so many uses for it. Medical/personal/clothing/fuel. It was banned for the most fucked up reasons to. Thats why every year i make it down to queens park in toronto to smoke a fat blunt infront of cops at the "Freedom Festival" Its the closest thing to wood stock I will ever have the chance to expericence.LEGALIZE IT!A friendly happy protest brings out the hippie in me.

Cannibis laws in Canada arn't to strick here. I've been caught with a gram of weed on me and the cop just took it and told me it will make a pretty girl like me stupid. LMAO. I'm pretty sure he smokeed it. I don't know many people who don't smoke weed. My dad does. hahahaha lmao

sry my spellings so shit i just got my nails done lmao

I'm not going to be sleeping for the next little bit, so I guess I might as well study for the morning's class on UTIs... Fantastic...

Urinary Tract infections lmao.

Yeah, my life is fantastic, isn't it?

Hmmm this is al very intresting.

I will NEVER do GHB. Thanks for posting this Whirls, altho u already told me this over the phone, but it sounds horrible and scary what happened t you and i will think twice before ever taking that shit. That what happened to you sounds like my worst nightmare. I dont ever want that to happen to me!

As for E, i do enjoy it a LOT. I mean, i fucking love it. This is why i set a rule for myself : Only take E once every 3 months. And i am really strickt in this, too. The last time i did E was 2 weeks ago so now i have to wait for a bit :-P I had reaaaaaaaally good beans too ; i was rushing my ass off but i still looked good haha. I hate to look like a washingmachine. ANd i already learned that taking to much is not a good thing. Now i take over a whole night, depending on the beans, one or one and a half max.

As for coke, its not good for me. Ive done it few times and i like it when i'm on it, but when i go home and i am alone i get huge guilttrips where i start crying and feel really guilty. I get panic attacks, too. I have to call people at 5 am to have them talk me out of it ( Sorry Mips :p ). I can still do it but only when somebody's sleeping with me ( not WITH me but as in i'm not alone :-P ) and not too much, and def not too often. I've seen friends addicted to that shit and it aint pretty.

Shrooms i fucking love. Only did it once but it was the funniest, most amazing, most beautifull experience ever. I did them with my bro and his good friend at my bro's place and before i knew it i laughed my ass off over a package of coffee-milk. As it kicked in i knew i had to surrender to it and as soon as i did and i wasn't fighting it, i had a fantastic trip. Yes, the walls were breathing. I sat hald an our in the restroom looking at the floor, it was awesome. And trying to hold a convo with my bro was the funniest thing :lol: we kept on talking in loops.

Thats all ive tried. I know myself and i know i will try lots of other things too but for me , moderation is the key. I hte those coke guilt trips. I dont do coke often at all, but like last satruday while the day before i was in bed with fever, i had dinner with my friend, i had a few once and 30 mins later we ordered a gram. It was a fun crazy night but it was silly. So for me, i have to take care of those things. I'm not gonna go out/clubbing/raving till the end of november!

Good lord.

There is something to say about getting drunk and smoking a bowl. Nice feeling and with some goo friends. on top of that, we are watching Hot Fuzz.. awesome movie. Pretty damn funny! ( c:

Heya Jennyk, I'm really sorry to hear about all the troubles in your family and it's good you are open and up front about stuff like this. Addiction is a disease so it's good you're aware as that's like a reality check.

I think my biggest problem with drugs (in excess or in the case of GHB) is there comes a time when the tables are turned so you're being controlled when you should be the one in control. It's a horrible feeling knowing you're lacking that control. Not being in control scares me something fierce.

As for meth, I've seen way too many people go down that road, I've lived with meth freaks a number of years ago and while it makes for interesting "roommate stories" the reality is it was downright pathetic to see people so hopelessly caught up in it. My heart goes out to any and all who are in the throes of habitual drug use and deep down want to quit, but are finding it so hard.

Its really becoming an epidemic. In the past year i've seen a few of my friends start it. It just gets more and more popular. I try and steer my closer friends into the right direction when it comes to that. And my sister is a just a lost cause. Shes 21 she has to figure it out for herself.

Yeah, I do feel that in some cases no amount of intervention is going to do any good if the person deep down doesn't want it or has lost all hope. Some people need to figure these things out for themselves - but in a lot of cases some people just grow out of it and move on, other times they get a wake up call that scares them straight. The saddest cases are the downward spirals, I think. The cases where it's gone so wrong that it'll never change.

People self medicate for a number of reasons. The root causes are there, some clinical and some psychological. It's just a matter of the person who is self medicating coming to the point of realization and understanding why they're doing it.

I can't say that using coke has ever (well, once maybe) had any real detrimental effect on me emotionally or physically other than occasionally being tired from not going to bed. To me, it's not a magic drug, it doesn't make me feel king of the world, it doesn't make me aggressive or paranoid, but it's a nice enjoyable rush. I truly wish it was much cheaper because it seems like it should be a cheap drug: a quick high that is completely manageable in almost any public setting (unless you're doing stupid amounts of it). [Edit]

MDMA also doesn't much bother me either in terms of side-effects but it's also no longer magical except on very rare occasions. It's a tool to a good night and I choose it because it's a cleaner, more enjoyable high than getting stupid drunk but rare are the times when it takes me somewhere that I feel completely perfect. A couple caps, couple lines, couple drinks and I have a very fun, outgoing night that goes into the wee hours of the morning, that I remember all of, and that I don't feel like I got hit by a bus the next day. Watch a James Bond movie at 5 AM and sleep on the couch under a blanket. Nice end to a night every once in a while.

I've gotten a lot smarter about a lot of things over the past year, done a lot of dumb things to get me there, but I'm fortunate to have a pretty good constitution. I'm a pretty impulsive person, prone to doing things on a whim, but I'm also ridiculously self-reflective and I try not to lie to myself too much (or at least for too long).

I turned down an offer tonight to come rip a few lines and have a study session for tomorrow's exam. We'll save it for the weekend.

yeah When dealing with the stronger stuff you rrally need to keep in moderation. Its very ez to become an addict.

heh. Today at work was rough. No sleep. I haven't slept on a Friday night in over a month now. Tonight's we'll be back at it again but I will get SOME sleep. Eventually.

fuck man i love sleeping waaaaaaay to much! sleeping is fantastic! i could never live like that hehe

me too. I always look forward to the weekends, because I know I can sleep in.

I love sleeping too, so when I actually do sleep I appreciate it SO much.

Slept in until noon today. Horray for days off!