Stash, you saved my day twice today--once with the change in signature and once with that Dan Savage post.

Fucking awesome x2.

Man, tonight was supposed to be a total rip it up, but it's only getting there slowly. I was planning to be up until dawn, snorting lines of a cistern somewhere. Ah well, everyone kinda bitched out as the night wore on.

Anyways, wings + beer, then vodka + beer, now I finally buckled and bought my first weed in like 6 weeks. Got an 1/8 off a good friend, didn't even have more than $10 to give him upfront and he gave me like 6 grams. I like friends.

Well, will likely report back in a bit. Don't need to be up in the morning, but I'm contemplating taking the last of my shrooms when I wake up.

Hmmm. Either Darkstar crashed out or was too battered to navigate the forums. Come back to us Tim. Your trip reports own this thread!

Nah, I just hung out for a bit then went to bed. Not going to go on a psychedelic journey today, I don't think, a bit too groggy and tired for that. Think I'm going to go rollerblading instead.

I'm cooked. Couple Caesars, couple beers, few spliffs, bottle of wine. Done. Work in 6 hours. Mental.

OH YEAH MOTHERFUCKERS!

The Jeanie is back indahouze!

Well , i was last night.

I had such a wicked night.

Had lots of cosmo's and oysters , first time i ever had oysters and i kinda liked it !! Its a very sexy dish.

It was the opening of a new bar and so free drinks all around !! :-D

After we went to NL wich is the club my lovely friend Anna works at.

Needless to say it was a very good , yet very messy evening.

Ah i feel like i am getting my life back here in Amsterdam. Its hard to live somewhere again after four years of travelling !!!

:D

My friend Luna found some intresting articles on Sleep Paralysis. Everything they discribe is EXACTLY what happened to me the other day when i was on a come down.

Its very intresting

http://en.wikipedia....Sleep_paralysis

Also click the link hypnagogic hallucinations.

I am SO glad that this is normal !!!

jeanie was messy last night ....

or was that friday?

It was only last night. You might have missed it but I was on the phone with her for 2 hours!!

I just came across a poem I'd written at the beginning of April while wasted and figured I'd share. Enjoy --

Requiem for a Quiet Night in For a Casual Wreckhead:

When I'm sitting at home with a bottle of cheap wine

I'm wondering why I don't do this all the time

It allows me to avoid dealing with people and getting in tiffs

I just sit back, chill, and smoke a lot of spliffs

At home I can save the shrapnel in my pocket

And do dumb things that make me curious like stick a fork in the light socket

It's no wonder I've lost all ability to reason

I wasted several months stoned watching the last Laguna Beach season.

Relationships are for people who seem to have the time

But so long as I have porn and beer I think I'll be doing just fine

Nothing seems to satisfy quite like a good movie or book

When I'm in an inquisitive and playful mood and only semi-cooked.

So, in conclusion, I think everyone should make some time for themself

And that way no one else will be there to watch you when you ralph.

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I'm actually rather proud of that. Makes me laugh something fierce. And I kept a consistent rhyme scheme for a change.

Anyways, out to the pub despite having $20 to last me until payday. I'll be sociable and drink water. Sure I will.

Couple beers, couple joints, couple bowls, couple lines, couple bacon cheeseburgers. A decent night all around.

Haha, that poem is good stuff man! Obviously, despite what Frank says, weed DOES make you more creative

Hahahahaha Darkie! That is a wicked poem!

And Whirls , were we on the phone for that long ?! I hope i made any sense :lol: I remember everything tho i wasn't that drunk. Oh and i remember my voice was gone , too!

Awesome poem man. I like it.

HOLY SHIT!!

Jeanie, I can't thank you enough for posting about that sleep paralysis. I'm nearly in tears and that's no joke. I've been having these hallucinations and freakouts in my sleep for over a year now and when i told the Doc she just said to lay off the drugs and drink. I did that but have still found myself 'waking' up like this on a regular basis.

I've never told anyone else about this and have wondered for months why my girlfriend never mentions my mid-night freakouts. But it's OK now. Relief. I'm bringing this article to my Doc tomorrow as I had a fit the last night after smoking a few joints. Think I've finally fucked myself up seriously.

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On a lighter note, love the poem Darkstar, hope you don't mind, i'm copying it for my smoking buddies. I'll make sure to put a little © thingy for your copyleft!

Charco , i'm glad i could help a brother out ;)

I do think in my case drugs had something to with it. The night before i did a large amount ( large for me , that is , i dont do drugs often or a lot ) of MDMA. I think that might have triggered it.

But no matter how or why it happend - it's a very scary and intens experience.

I'm glad i am not the only one and i'm glad there is a name for what happened to me ( and you! )

10 days until the child is off to grandpa's house for a 2 week vacation, and I'll have nothing to do all weekend but wake and bake and rolllll

aw yeah.

Charco, feel free to use the poem as you wish. I'd be flattered if someday I came across it on the internet somewhere.

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This is going to come as a shock, but I turned down free pills last night. My buddy wanted me to come wingman for him at a club and offered me pills as a bribe but I elected to stay in (and get stoned and have beers, but that's beside the point). I haven't rolled in 7 months now and I'm not going to do it until Folk Fest next month at the soonest, if I do it then. To think that this was such a large problem for my previous relationship and that I haven't done it since the second weekend after we broke up makes me laugh a bit.

It's just as well I said no, since I accidentally locked myself out of my house while enjoying a spliff, sandwich and beer on the deck. I was locked out for nearly four hours. I slept in my garage for a bit after the sun went down. Was very grumpy when my parents finally showed up at home around 11 PM. Not happy.

Worst part was that the rest of my beer was inside the house. Grrr....

done with finals and wasted before 7pm woo!

I'm not buzzing now, but I just passed a drug test! Whooooo! I love life.