And I seem to have lost my Sex Pistols belt buckle as well.

dude, so wasted you lost your drugs. that's bad news.

So, last night we went up to L.A., Pasadena specifically, cuz my dad was in town from Arizona and he wanted to take us out to dinner. It was my mom, my dad, my stepmom, my sister and her husband, whirly and the boy child.



We went to this brazilian restuarant, it was fucking insane. They had this 'salad bar', but it was like, roasted asparagus, shrimp, marinated artichoke hearts, all this amazing stuff.



Then when you sit down, there's this little cylinder on the table. One end is red, the other green. When the green end is up, people bring you these giant skewers of grilled meat. Like ribeye, filet mignon, whole quail, lambchops, seriously, like 7 different kinds of meat. They'll stop when you turn the cylinder to red, and let you rest. They also had a defibrilator cart. no, but they should have.



then came the funny part. there was no menu, or prices or anything. Turned out it was $50 a head.



So, I actually had like a meat buzz.



then my brotherinlaw gave me a bunch of trazadone. took that and slept like the dead.

I still haven't gone to sleep (now 4:30 PM) and I have since taken two lorazepam and smoked a joint to ease the comedown. I noticed sublte visual distortions shortly before the joint, but these have since developed into complete pattern-warping, shape-changing, altering of rooms and house and reality. It feels really easily to alter the world around you, but to compensate "the game" alters the lighting and tries to spook you with visual and audio elements.



This is superfun. It's like being in a scary movie.

You're still up now??

Have you eaten a blotter or something?

Darkstarexodus Escribi�:

I still haven't gone to sleep (now 4:30 PM) and I have since taken two lorazepam and smoked a joint to ease the comedown. I noticed sublte visual distortions shortly before the joint, but these have since developed into complete pattern-warping, shape-changing, altering of rooms and house and reality. It feels really easily to alter the world around you, but to compensate "the game" alters the lighting and tries to spook you with visual and audio elements.



This is superfun. It's like being in a scary movie.

*jealous*





;)

No, just a lot of pills (went through 2 on Friday and 8 last night). I took the last two just before I got home at 8AM. As I set waiting to watch a movie and catch a nap, I remember something. Thus, two lorazepam, 2 Vitamin C tabs, 3 5-HTP all go down the hatch. Had to roll a shitty joint because I lost my pipe, but it did the trip fantastically, enhancing subtler points with depth and sensation.

This is a full-on, time and space warping trip and a half. I am just willing to keep my parents out of town for another couple of hours. I can hardly type b/c of all the weird shit going on around me.

the amount of drugs of guys consume is astonishing ! 8O



and i though i take a lot, turns out i m still a rookie :-|

What's the big deal about ten hits of E, a couple grams of weed, and two lorazepam? X-D



The visuals in the trip are getting more negatively oriented and more and more vivid (almost hyper-vivid at times). My parents returning home in particular is freaking me out. The "computer" can sample any noise I know and place it to fool me. Physically I feel very edgy, but veering from energetic to blissful and back. Waves of pleasure wash over my body.



Been listening to a couple BoyElectric's mixes, and the August one in particular got really freaky and had all kinds of creatures scurrying about.



God I'm going to wish I didn't post all this shit tomorrow.

Hmm, I seem to have stumbled onto Erowid, I thought this was the Chems forum!

Arent you glad we keep it all in one thread? X-D



So, I stuck it out and watched another movie last night, finally going to bed around 2AM. Don't feel appreciably more tired than I do any weekday morning, so that's good, despite missing an entire day's sleep and replacing it with a long but fulfilling session. Too bad I need to spend tonight studying, 'cause a long nap sounds good about now.

chemicalfan Escribi�:

Hmm, I seem to have stumbled onto Erowid, I thought this was the Chems forum!

you know!!!! 8O X-D



i can only imagine the depression it will cause after the effect of all them drugs wear out.

chemicalfan Escribi�:

Hmm, I seem to have stumbled onto Erowid, I thought this was the Chems forum!

Best thread I've ever started.





DS, you need to chill a bit, I think.



I've been doing drugs steadily for the last 16 years, and I've never done more than 2 1/2 pills without a comedown period in between.... of course, I've hoovered a half gram of meth in one sitting...

toomuch'stash Escribi�:

DS, you need to chill a bit, I think.



I've been doing drugs steadily for the last 16 years, and I've never done more than 2 1/2 pills without a comedown period in between.... of course, I've hoovered a half gram of meth in one sitting...

I really do appreciate the concern and I definetly can't have nights like these often at all. Probably won't do pills again till NYE, I expect, and even then not in that large of quantity.



And I did the pills in sets of two, approx. every 2 to 3.5 hours. I listened to my body and it told me alright, just be careful.



This weekend's partying was good for me because it allowed me to get a lot of shit out my system. And I found it introspective and rewarding, esp. at home yesterday. Now I actually feel content and ready to get back to studying again. Previously I'd felt a bit distracted.



Getting mangled on the rare occasion seems to reset my system and get me back and straightened out when I start drifitng a bit too far into malaise and boredom.

Darkstarexodus Escribi�:

This weekend's partying was good for me because it allowed me to get a lot of shit out my system.

Yeah, I figured as much... whirly was just worried, you know, she's like the Chemical Den Mother or something... frankly, I'd love a fuckin' bender like that, but by the time I have the time to do it, I'll be in even worse shape to survive it.



I should start working out, just so I can handle a really long drug binge.

toomuch'stash Escribi�:

Darkstarexodus Escribi�:

This weekend's partying was good for me because it allowed me to get a lot of shit out my system.

Yeah, I figured as much... whirly was just worried, you know, she's like the Chemical Den Mother or something... frankly, I'd love a fuckin' bender like that, but by the time I have the time to do it, I'll be in even worse shape to survive it.



I should start working out, just so I can handle a really long drug binge.

It wasn't like I was all depressed or anything either. I was just going out both nights and had the realization that I now only had fear holding me back (common sense having deserted me some time ago) from doing whatever I desire. Didn't really want to try to pull a girl yet and didn't want to be anywhere near sober enough to get depressed about not pulling a girl. Just went and grabbed onto all the positive energy around me and rode it while it lasted.



Found out today my friend's all left around 1:30 AM, meaning that I decided to stay on my own for about 5 1/2 hours completely ripped off my tits. That's the biggest sign of a good night.



I am a little curious as to what made me hallucinate so strongly yesterday. This weed does have a pretty visual component to it, but nowhere near what I experienced yesterday. Don't know if maybe their was MDA in the pills or just the lingering MDMA potentiated the weed. Or if there was a reaction between the two facilitated by the lorazepam or the 5-HTP. Curious.

Sorry to get all motherly on yo azz, Darkstar! :( I just don't want anything bad to happen to my favorite Canadian!



But I hear ya - it's been rough for you the past couple of weeks. I know you're not careless and you needed to get a bunch of stuff out of your system and I'm glad you were able to do that by way of partying, letting it go and being in the company of good friends... aaaah... the healing powers of drugs!

You were tripping pretty hard... the only times I've ever had mad visuals was when I've smoked loads on the come down and I've been up for hours and hours on end and my body and mind aren't in sync with each other. In your case it could have been anything but my guess would be your body was fatigued but your mind was still racing from the marathon trip from having loads of stuff still coursing through your veins. Who knows (you'd probably know better than anyone, you being the parma major n'all.) Sleep deprivation can make you see funny things.

whirlygirl Escribi�:

You were tripping pretty hard... the only times I've ever had mad visuals was when I've smoked loads on the come down and I've been up for hours and hours on end and my body and mind aren't in sync with each other. In your case it could have been anything but my guess would be your body was fatigued but your mind was still racing from the marathon trip from having loads of stuff still coursing through your veins. Who knows (you'd probably know better than anyone, you being the parma major n'all.) Sleep deprivation can make you see funny things.

It was VERY comparable to a mushrooms trip, with closet doors melting and morphing, voices coming from nowhere, patterning everywhere, things coming up from the subconscious (which I found very therapeutic). Freaky but good, and which I tried to extend with pot as long as I could (until about 10:30 PM from 11:30 AM).



Unfortunately I'd been getting a bit too comfortable getting high at home and sure enough my mom could smell it and so I am busted. Dad doesn't know yet and when he does it'll be fun and lollipops. heh. ah well, shit happens and I don't like hiding and being paranoid anyways.



And I definetly appreciate the concern. It was a pretty wild weekend, but really has put me in a good vibe.